Wow!
Sunday I wanted to donate blood at the state fair. I was denied, because my blood pressure was too high.
I started monitoring my blood pressure and it did not want to come down. So I made an appointment to see the doctor on Wednesday morning. He tweaked my BP meds a bit and did some blood labs.
The next day I got a call from the clinic with me lab results : “Everything is fine, except your blood sugar levels. They are very high. You have been diagnosed with diabetes.” What else she said I can honestly not remember……
The rest of Thursday was a rollercoaster ride of all the emotions you always hear when people loose loved ones. The one emotion I have been left with is terror in various levels.
I am due for my annual checkup in two weeks and that is when I will learn more. I assume that I will not die immediately or go blind or loose a foot or whatever else can go wrong with you when you have diabetes.
I have been looking a bit on the web, but I have no facts to work from – what type do I have, should I eat more or less or more regular.
All this stress is doing a new number on my BP – the tweaked meds is not helping too much.
That kind of sums up where I am now. I have not told anybody else – because I think my stress is so high, I want to burst out in tears even just thinking about talking to anybody. But maybe I should make a big effort and just let go of it toward someone.